Haven't had my rejection from the 2007 BBC Writers' Academy yet, but now wish it would hurry up and arrive so I can stop thinking about it. Feels something akin to a surprise dental examination: you're not sure when it'll happen, but you know the experience won't be enjoyable. So I wait. Waiting is one of those skills nobody ever discusses at film school. It'd make a great lesson: how to wait without going completely and utterly albatross-flange-wibble insane. Perhaps paired with Coffee: The Writer's Friend.
Had a lovely meeting at the start of May, that might lead to something at some point in the future. Made a follow-up phone call last week, which led to another phone call this week. Latest update: the key personnel are now on holiday. Until August. So a fresh note gets added to the wall planner for that month and it's time to move on to other opportunities. Got some scripts out in the world, but I can't legitimately chase them up until mid-July without crossing the invisible line between professional and pushy.
Learning how to wait, knowing when to make a follow-up call, whether it's best to email or use the phone - these are all intangible things. The more importance you have, the quicker you can expect a response in most creative industries. But when you're at the bottom of the ladder, with one radio play as your sole broadcast credit, patience is an essential virtue. Deluge people with material and you can very quickly wear out your welcome, especially if the material isn't your best work.
Happily, I'm starting to accumulate paid writing gigs once more after devoting most of my time in recent months to spec work. Got a book project that's inching towards a greenlight. Got a long, long, long interview to transcribe for a multi-part feature. Got lots of little bits and bobs to fill the gaps. Got some more comics work on the horizon that will tickle the places where creativity nestles.
Being busy is good for the bank balance and the brain. Stops me having to think about all the things on which I'm waiting. And waiting. And waiting...